I ache. Ache from the pain I’ve caused my husband. Ache from my failures as a mother. Ache for the pain of Jesus reflected in their eyes. A deep, agonizing ache so painful I can barely breathe sometimes. It pours out as I lay before my Jesus stripped bare of pretense and false bravado. I have wept like a woman drowning in sorrow.
And I have found peace. Jesus has held me, carried me, lifted me to a place of grace and forgiveness. Mercy so sweet I weep all the more because I don’t deserve one bit of it. But he loves me anyway. Despite my ugly sins, my marred spirit, blackened heart. He washes me clean; clothes me in white.
How precious are you, Lord? You, who has brought me out of darkness. Surrounded me with such peace I can hardly fathom it’s depths. Thank you, Jesus. You are my God, and I will worship you as long as I have breath.
Stop.
“We write because we love words and the relief it is to just write them without worrying if they’re just right or not. So we take five minutes on Friday and write like we used to finger paint. For joy in the process. No matter how messy the result.”
Kathleen says
What a beautiful prayer, so thoughtful and lovely. It is so wonderful how the Lord finds us deserving but we still feel the lack within ourselves. Our sins are as far as the east is from the west… He has no recollection of them. Praise Him for his goodness and mercy 🙂
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Audra Marie says
Such a good reminder, Kathleen. He chooses to never remember our sins once forgiven. His grace is amazing and humbling. Thanks for stopping by. 🙂
Stacy says
Mercy so sweet I weep all the more because I don’t deserve one bit of it. ….
How beautiful is our God. I, too, have wept those same tears when His mercy so sweet poured over me.
Beautifully written…word by word….straight to my heart.
Audra Marie says
Thank you, Stacy. I’m glad the post spoke to you. Yes, our God is beautiful, and so worthy of our adoration. Thanks for visiting today.
Michele-Lyn says
This is so beautiful… and your soul, ah… your heart for the Lord, your love for your family and your desire to be like Him compels me to draw near to the cross… Thank you for this … seemingly offered as a prayer to the One Who hears your heart… and holds your heart.
Blessings to you…
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Audra Marie says
Michele-Lyn, thank you so much for your beautiful encouragement.