Resting in Him

Life has come at us hard. It does that sometimes. One of the things that we’re walking through involves our oldest son. He’s had constant pain in the crown of his head for two weeks now. A CAT scan reveals nothing amiss. However, we’ve tried several pain medicines including one for migraines, and nothing does more than maybe take the edge off a little. Maybe. Our next step is a Pediatric Neurologist.

He has three levels of pain the worst feeling like he’s been shot in the back of his head. His description. I’ve been searching for answers, pushing a little for results. Nothing. This along with some other tough life knocks hitting all at once has my mind scrambling. Scrambling to encourage those discouraged. Scrambling for answers. Scrambling. To the point where I’m exhausted.

And then I remember. Rest. We are called to rest in Him. It doesn’t mean we don’t do anything. It simply means we don’t scramble in our own strength to understand or solve issues. We seek Him, we give it all to Him, and we step out in the knowledge that He is there. That He knows the answers. And we rest in that. We rest in Him.

I’m crawling right under His wing to seek that rest now. To trust that He cares even more for my son than I do. That he cares about our family, and will take care of us know matter how things go with these other situations.

Why do I forget this? I know the why. And it grieves me. I forget how much I need Him. Need to be in His presence. Need to be at the Rabbi’s feet. Oh how it grieves me. And it grieves Him. He holds the joy and the peace I long for, but I don’t come to Him until I’m rung out.

I need to remember to seek Him first. To go to Abba Father, and say Lord, here is a mess that has come our way. I trust You to work it out for good, and not evil. I will stand on the knowledge that it was ALL done on the cross. I choose to believe He will heal my son, and work in our circumstances. I don’t have to know how or when or where or anything. I must trust that He knows what’s best and right and good.

I apologize for my quiet blog. We had a tummy bug, and then this hit. I’ve been so discouraged, and tired. However, I’ll be soaking in God’s presence every morning. I can’t not sit at His feet and lead my family to do the same. Now while we desperately need Him, but also when life smooths out because really, I always desperately need Him. Even when life seems just fine.